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Dynamic is more complete, so I do it whenever I have time. That is the best, because it includes fire breathing – a significant tool in that it chemically changes my bodymind. I feel it! Without any effort my energy simply changes.

Then the stage of release through the body – I move my body a lot – and the jumping of the third stage…. Now, after years of doing Dynamic, I am discovering the greatness of this stage: it brings me to my centre. By this I mean that, in spite of all that is happening around me that creates a lot of movement in my mind, I reach a point from where I am able not to get caught up in this internal hurricane. In the stage of standing absolutely still and being silent I learn to do nothing but just observe whatever is happening inside and outside me. *1

Once I heard Osho asked: “Is it possible to celebrate sadness?” So many times when I am angry or in a bad mood, then I am reminded of his answer – that you can really celebrate everything – your anger, your sadness…. Celebration is not only to do with good emotions. * 2

That’s probably a novel idea for many people! Can you explain what you mean?

Celebrating means accepting that sadness is how I feel in a certain moment, and understand-ing that I can dance my sadness. If I am angry, I allow myself to dance in an angry way – I drop the ideas that dance has to be beautiful and joyful – and then my mood changes. It is amazing, but by the end I feel lighter. Somehow the element of play has arrived, so I can play with my anger. If I dance these feelings I am not trying to change them but I am able to see them as part of life, so it is easier to allow them to be. Dancing is one way; or I go for a walk alone in nature – near the sea or in the woods. If I use these strategies, many times when I return my mood has totally changed by itself. It might happen sometimes that Nirodh is still in a bad mood; then I realise how much more difficult it is for him because he doesn’t have the options that I do to release uncomfortable feelings. In spite of this, he often manages to drop his negativity.

On other occasions it is he who pulls me out of my space because he has, by nature, a very positive attitude.

What else are you learning through being with a partner who is increasingly dependent on you?

Before, I thought that to accept was to become passive, but I am finding that it’s an active stance. For example, as I said earlier, if I use the dancing for anger, then I am accepting my anger and it is transformed by itself. Similarly, I am learning to do this generally with my life near a sick man whom I love. If I use this situation by accepting that I can feel angry and can feel that I am missing out on certain things – and allow these feelings – then I feel a freedom. The freedom is an inner thing. It is the freedom to be responsible for staying – or going.

From him I am learning: if Nirodh, with the real difficulties he has with his body, can take life easy and in a positive way, why can’t I who has a healthy body, who can move around freely and who is totally independent?

Do you ever think about the future?

Again I face a choice: I can either freak out… Then the significance of meditation kicks in – that is, the remembrance to stay in the moment. So I remind myself, “Okay, you can fantasize about a really terrible scenario, but right now that is not the situation.” So I can either feel frightened about the future, or I can see our life as a creation of more and more beautiful moments together.

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1) Visit http://www.osho.com or www.activemeditation.com for a detailed explanation of Osho Dynamic, and the active approach to meditation in general.

2) The following passage is part of Osho’s response about celebrating sadness.

“It is possible [to celebrate misery] because celebration is an attitude. Celebration means: whatsoever happens is irrelevant – I will celebrate. Celebration is not conditional on certain things: 'When I am happy then I will celebrate,' or, 'When I am unhappy I will not celebrate.' Celebration is unconditional; I celebrate life. It brings unhappiness? Good, I celebrate it. It brings happiness? Good, I celebrate it. Celebration is my attitude, unconditional to what life brings.

“How can one celebrate when one is sad? I am not saying that one has to be happy to celebrate. Celebration is gratefulness for whatsoever life gives to you. Whatsoever God gives to you, celebration is gratitude; it is gratefulness.

“This is what alchemy is: to transform the baser metal into higher gold. Sadness, anger, jealousy – baser metals can be transformed into gold because they are constituted of the same elements as gold.

“Once you know the key, your life will never be the same again. You can unlock any door. And this is the master key: to celebrate everything.

“When there is a possibility of transforming anger into bliss, greed into compassion, jealousy into love... you don't know what you are losing. You don't know what you are missing. You are missing the whole point of being here in this universe.

“Give it a try!”     (Yoga: The Alpha and Omega)